Knitting Hell

I have been in such a weird knitting headspace lately. Last month was the first month in about 3 years that I did not complete a single knitted project. In fact I think I frogged at least 10 projects over the course of the month. I’m not 100% sure why this is happening, but I think at least part of it has to do with me getting in my own head. I am second guessing things I never used to second guess and comparing my projects to others, thinking theirs are better than mine. That is so not like me. Part of it might also have to do with the fact that I am fixated on this one pattern. It’s like I am obsessed with it, I have written countless blog posts about it already and I think it is messing with my confidence. Partly because I went back and forth on what yarn to use for months before finally breaking down and buying the crazy expensive handspun yarn. Even then I wasn’t stratified, the yarn I purchased (although absolutely beautiful) wasn’t exactly what I was hoping it would be. Partly because when you buy online you never really know what you are going to get and partly because the yarn is handspun each skein is unique and doesn’t always look like the pictures online. Anyway, that lead me to buy even more yarn and I thought it was love at first sight until I started knitting with it. Again, it wasn’t turning out exactly how I wanted it to and I frogged yet again. I want to just put the project down and step away, find something new to work on, but in the back of my head this project is just sitting there staring at me. When I am working on other projects all I am thinking about is how I can make this project work.

Jon just sits there and rolls his eyes at me thinking I am being absolutely ridiculous, and I am (I know that), but this is the reality of knitting sometimes. I know I am not alone because I see other knitters talk about it on their blogs and on social media, it’s nice to know I am not alone in this and it happens to all of us. I can’t be creative 100% of the time, but after being on such a roll there for so long, it’s hard when I hit a rut, to dig myself out of it. It’s like there is some imagined pressure I am putting on myself that I have to knit every day and I have to constantly be finishing projects. I don’t, I can take it slow and don’t have to knit every day. If I don’t produce a finished project for the next 6 months that’s okay.