Pattern Release Day Nerves

Pattern release day is always super nerve wracking. I have only done it twice so far but I am always a bag of nerves. Will people like it? What if I made a mistake in the pattern? Are the photos okay? Am I good enough? These are just some of thoughts that run through my mind before I hit the release button. I also can’t help but compare one pattern to the next in terms of how well it is doing or not doing as the case may be and then over analyzing it. All of these feelings are normal I know, but it takes a lot for me to put myself out there. That seems odd I know as I have a blog, a small social media present and now sell my work but it’s true. I just have to keep telling myself I would be doing this anyway even if no one ever buys a thing. I do this because I love it and I want to share my work with others.

As an introvert this has been a huge step in trying to get myself out there more and push myself to gain confidence. This blog is call Knitting Confessions for a reason. By “confessing” my inner most feelings it allows me not only to get it all off my chest but also to release some of my anxiety. It’s my form of journaling but instead of keeping it to myself I choose to share it publicly because I know I am not the only one feeling this way. Social media makes it so easy for people to think others lives are so great and perfect but the reality is they aren’t. Social media is a great way to connect with others but also can cause harm and my hope is by sharing my real feelings others will realize they aren’t alone.